Ellie Goulding turned to alcohol to make herself more "interesting" – Music News

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    The 32-year-old singer admitted to fame in her early days and figuring she had to rely on alcohol to make herself "a bit funnier" and "crazier" in interviews because she did not think she would be "good enough" without him.

    She said, "I had to be one wrong person to deal with the surreal situation in which I found myself.

    "Normally it was alcohol. I figured I could not be good enough, smart, funny, or crazy enough to be with certain people. "

    The & # 39; Burn & # 39; singer even drank before appearing in the BBC Radio 1 Live Lounge. because she was so nervous to perform live on the radio.

    She added, "In the past, live lounges were the most nerve-wracking, I even drank, I swear to God.

    "I would say," Right, I have to have a drink this morning because I have this interview and I do not really know how to answer the questions because I do not really know who anymore I am 39;

    "I thought drinking would make me a little more funny or interesting.

    " I was not an alcoholic. I could live months without a drink.

    And Ellie – who is now married to Caspar Jopling – said that her love life at the time, when she was with DJ Greg James and McFly's Dougie Poynter, was just as confusing.

    She explained during a performance in Fearne Cotton's "Happy Place" podcast, "I did not know who I was. I was in a relationship, but I felt I needed someone because I was not near my family.

    "I had this job that took me around the world, forcing me all to stand in the limelight the day to talk about it, so I always needed someone. But I was not really me. I do not want to say to anyone close to me that it was not real, but it was not what it should have been. I'm sorry, but it was my survival.

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